I don't know what happened to me just now,seriously.

My throat is sore from shouting.(soundlessly though)

My mum had been like,nagging at me to tidy up my table,so on Sun i tidied it up,and put the things i wanted into boxes and things i did not want into the dustbin(of course).

I think my mum thought the things in the boxes were things that i did not want,so she put the contents of the first box into a plastic bag and put it on my table.The other one she told my brother to bring downstairs.Lucky i overheard and told my mother that i DID WANT.Yeah,i was angry.Things that i wanted could have had been in the rubbish dump at tampines the next day and never seen again(same fate as my old handphone).

After that i saw that a mini cupboard that i put on Sun for some miscellaneous things had also been put away and the contents put in my bookshelf.

Well i just started crying and crying and i was so frustrated i shouted(those types of shouts that delibrately give off no sound).Shouted and shouted.Eerie,i know,but these are the types of shouts ppl give when they want to vent their anger quietly.

I guess it was a stress breakdown.One?My webquest printing hadn't exactly gone the way it should have.

Two?My Cello Xiao Ke was this Saturday,and i had only practised on one occasion.

Three?My social studies homework.

Four?My things,things that i had just tidied up were rearranged again and nearly sent downstairs which would immediately go to the nearest rubbish dump from my house.

Cried and cried and cried.By myself of course,in my room without anybody else seeing.Vexed,stressed,unhappy,worried,tired and depressed were my only emotions at that point of time.

I guess surely everyone has these type of breakdowns?Like you've been tolerating/compressing/thinking you've gotten rid of something,a feeling,an emotion,for such a long time suddenly something happens and those emotions just come out in a wave?

After that there are only two possibilites:

1)You feel better,by A LOT.I mean A LOT

2)You feel the same,but after a while you are glad you let out your emotions when you feel something has taken a turn for the better.

I can't decide which case is mine.But.I hope things will get better.I cried today.I hope i don't get single eyelids tomorrow.Please please please.Mostly when i cry,the next day i get single eyelids.(I'm double-eyelid-ed).

Yeah.So..hm.sharing session finished.Whoever is feeling like me right now,just be assured and know that nature will go its own course.Do your best in everything and be the best of who you can be.